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It's been a while

Lara

 Patent skirt from  MOSS COPENHAGEN ; Shirt from  Uniqlo

Patent skirt from MOSS COPENHAGEN; Shirt from Uniqlo

So I'm guessing you totally forgot about me and my blog right?! I totally did. Or well, I didn't forget, but I just didn't feel like writing anymore. I even thought about quitting entirely. I haven't been feeling that great and inspired lately. So I just behaved like an ostrich... head in the sand and ignore everything around it and especially ignore my own feelings. But I guess here I am again, for now ;)

So just a little update. I do love to write, to create and take photos, but lately I was having a hard time to find my thing again. And I know this isn't the first time I shared this with you, but somehow I just can't find my way out of this circle of feeling uninspired, down and not knowing what I want from life to feeling I've figured it out and this time I'll definitely get shit done. And that indeed works for a while, but then there is this voice in my head again, telling me I'm a failure and who am I to pursue this and that, while there are so many other people out there who can do it better. And I'm so done with this feeling. I mean, I'm almost 30 years old, now will probably a good time to say farewell to all the insecurities right?!

And it's not that I don't know what to do, in theory I know it all and I can give the best advise, but in the end you have to practice what you preach, and that my lovelies, is where it goes wrong. I just crawl back into my shell, stay at home, don't meet any people en thus feel like I can't create, because of course I'm not getting inspired... You see, circle? But I slowly started to make some changes, into my work and my work schedule, into me dressing up again (this is also a lot easier now it's not -30 anymore) and we also moved into a new apartment, which I really love. There is a lot of light in the living room and the garden room (yes we have a garden now), so I enjoy waking up here. 

But it's time to take it to the next level and actually start doing something with all the ideas I have in my head. I started with writing my ideas and some thoughts down on paper, I've created to-do lists and I've set mini goals. So I'm getting there. And I just have to deal with the fact that the voice will turn up again, but I just need to not let it consume me. 

As I mentioned before, this is not the first time I'm sharing these kind of things, and although it feels I'm just stuck and talking about the same thing over and over again, I have to admit I'm not. I might not have figured it out entirely, but I'm getting closer. All these other times have helped me grow and are helping me to really fight for figuring this out. 

Also one thing that I'm doing more lately, besides forever styling my interior differently and taking photos of it, is cooking and baking. I just love to create things and then take photos of it. So to not leave with all the heavy stuff, I will share this recipe for a quick and easy but uplifting lunch with you that I made the other day. I got this recipe from Jessica Merchant from The Feed Feed and it was just too delicious not to share. So here it is:

Blood orange, ricotta & honey toast. 
What you'll need:
- 2 slices (or more, depending on how hungry you are) bread of choice
- 1 cup of ricotta
- 2 blood oranges, peeled and the middle removed. 
- honey

So it's really easy, just toast the bread, put the ricotta on top of it (you can season it with a bit of salt and pepper), then put the sliced blood oranges on top of that and drizzle some honey over it. And it's done! 

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So I do hope you'll kind of stick with me and that you might even share your story. Also I do hope you'll enjoy this delicious and quick lunch someday!

With love,
Lara

A letter to myself

Lara

When I was younger I had this image in my head of what I would be doing after university, what kind of job and what kind of life I would have. But as most of these things, nothing goes exactly the way you plannend. And now I'm here... I'm 28 years old, I married the love of my life and we moved to Canada because Gordon got an awesome job at an awesome company and I thought this was going to be my fresh start. The start of me doing great things as well. But I'm still struggling with the same feelings and thoughts I had back in the Netherlands. And while this blogpost isn't necessarily an actual letter to myself, it's more of a reminder to myself (and also to all the other lovely people out there who can relate to it) to stop waiting, stop thinking, just start doing. Oh and also, while doing don't compare yourself to others!

Actually the thing I struggle with the most is work. I always thought (and still do in a certain way) that I would have a job in which I could truly make a difference for people. Really help others out. Or doing something I truly love. But with the move to Canada I'm kind of worried about that. Don't get me wrong, I have a job, I love what I'm doing and I work with really nice people. But still, working remotely is getting pretty hard for me. I really want to get some shit done, so I tend to stay at home in my pyjama's all day, not even taking a real break. Also, the not talking all day (in real life) to people and not seeing other people is getting hard for me. So I decided to do something about that. Allow myself to have a real break and going out of the house more. My first step was starting to go to yoga-classes and doing that during the day, gives me the break I need. 

That's the other thing: sports. I have to admit I'm not the sporty type, I've never been. I start something and after 2 or 3 times I come up with excuses and end up not going anymore. But with yoga it felt like it would be something I would really love. After years of thinking about going, 1,5 month ago I actually did it. And guess what, I go 3-4 times a week now. I feel really good about it. I know it's not bootcamp or crossfit training, but for me it's the right thing. And I know I can force myself to do something and like something, just because other people do it, but that doesn't work for me. I have to do something that I truly love, otherwise it won't stick. 

But the last couple of days I was feeling not quite well. A bit down I guess and I started to overthink everything again and focussing on the negative things. Also, to be really honest I'm not that good at admitting I'm responsible for these thoughts and things, so now is the time to change. If I keep whining and taking some disappointments really hard, that won't bring me any further. So that is also the reason I wanted to write this personal blogpost, to make sure this is the start of me taking some action. Being more active with my blog, since this is something I really love. Start doing, without comparing myself to others. Because why wouldn't I be good enough to do the things that I really love to do? I love putting an outfit together, I love to do some interior styling and taking photos of it. So why not get out more, talk to people and and maybe even working together?

So this time I decided to step out of my comfort zone and instead of complaining about the things I would rather have/see/do, I have to start doing! 

Who's with me?
Also, if you have tips on how to pursue this, please enlighten me, because I'm sure I'm still not always know what to do. 

The embroidered bomberjacket

Lara

While I was still whining about the bad weather in my latest blogpost, now we have true Spring weather! Yes, I know it's the Netherlands, but I think we should embrace it while we can! Oh, and just ignore todays rain :P
But the sun coming out meant that I went on an embroidered bomberjacket hunt! 

I notice that I'm saying more often: hey that's something I used to wear when I was little, which probably means I'm really getting old(er). Embroidered clothes are one of them and I must admit, I really love them. So when I saw this bomberjacket, I instantly fell in love. I really love that the primary colour is black (of course) and that the embroidered print consists earthy tones like white, green and some light pink. Besides the colours being subtle, I also like the print itself, some delicate flowers with some tiny birds. Just my cup of tea! 

Because I was so sun-struck I also bought a white jeans, for the first time in my life!, and thought it would make a great combination with the embroidered bomberjacket, a white oversized blouse and my white converse. I have to admit I was a little bit shocked by myself about all the white. Even my love, who is always complaining I'm always dressed dark, looked a bit doubtful.
But after all, and because the white jeans is casual and of thick material, I'm happy with it.

I  even think this might be my favourite outfit / combination for this Spring after all. 
What do you think?

Wearing:
Embroidered bomberjacket & White jeans from Zara
White oversized blouse from H&M
Sneakers from Converse All Stars